Filming =)

We went filming today and although I was in a very bad condition but they still tried to put it up with me. Thanks guys =)

This really does shows who is your true friend..although they did not talk to me much but from their expression I could see they really care for me..(except him) >:(

IF you guys are wondering why I was moody, wasn't because he broke my tripod well, partly of it was..
I know I'm at fault for putting the tripod there at the first place. But what really makes me angry is that he didn't even say a word of sorry!! I really wish to forgive him and don't wanna lose him again, but this matter made me think of something else..was it suppose to happen so that I have a reason to stay away from him?

I keep telling myself that what my feelings had for him was just jealousy and not love, but the more I tell myself the same word,the more I hate myself. why are you in my life???why must you be the one person I care so much that every time you did something wrong and I just wish to forgive you all the time??Why must you tell me your part of stories and why must I try so hard to get to know you??
I know I will get hurt myself and yet I still wish to jump in. I know I can't do this but I still wish to be important to you. I know your not mine and I still wish to own you.Why are you doing this to me???

I guess I really can't help but falling in love with you. All I wish for is happiness for you. I know we can always be friends but now I guess is the best time to settle things right. Maybe after time passes and everything is back to normal for me then I can accept the fact that I have gave you up. I wish for the best for you and the best for her too. I hope you don't break her heart as you have broken mine. I hope you will be happy with her as we can no longer be together. But upon all I hope you and I will still be best friends till the end of everything. A best friend that understands me and a best friend that looks after me no matter what happens. =')

and that person is you =')