thank you :)

I said Hi to you just now but you did not reply..I hope everything is fine with you :)
I always tell myself  that God is always equal because he will make sure all of us are happy in his plan, now I finally understand why they say we must always believe in God,because his plan is always the correct one and he will never let us go for no reason. :)

Thank you for coming into my life :)
When I was sad, you came in and held me up and I thank you for that.
When I needed someone to talk to you were always there for me :)
When you confessed to me you really light up my life and made me the happiest girl ever..
now that I finally understand why mom always tells me what is your will always find it's way to come to you but what isn't yours no matter how hard you get it it will never belong to you.
You were never mine..not once..but I thank you for coming into my life :)
You shine so brightly whenever I see you. You seem to always be the star among other people..but I still thank you for lighting up my life :)

I've made a very big decision..to give up :)
I've been holding on for 2 years and 3 months..and I really wanna let you know about that but I'm afraid that you will run away from me after telling you..you are like an angel to me..I don't know why you shine so brightly in my life but I really wanna let you know that even after giving you up..you will still shine like a star in my heart :)

I'm glad we're friends  because I really wish to have a relationship with you.
Although we can't be couples but we can still be friends..
I'm sorry for dumping you and I'm sorry for being unrealistic with you everytime we argue..thank you for your patience..giving me so much space and tolerating my temper :)

That XX

G-dragon wrote this song and I did not fell in love with it at first but after understanding the lyrics he was trying to express I fell in love..the story was very moving and it reminds me of you..from no where I see you in this Song..anyway I hope you all enjoy. :)

I wanna thank you for coming into my life :) 

thank you for being my friend even though I know we will never happen,but I still pray for the best..I pray for you to open up your heart and see me.

Thank you for inviting me to that trip..cause after that trip u let me understand my feelings to you even more...and that I did not let go once..after the broke up I was always waiting for a return..although it will not happen but I'm glad you came into my life and shine for at least one moment. :)

A wonderful Monday holiday

Hello my lovely blog. Let's start with the morning shall we?

Morning: Well I woke up early to finish my duties..and then came home for Lunch...got to know Linus Chua a bit more now =) Then my aunt and uncle came for a visit in the afternoon. Was happy to see them but was even happier to see my cousin brother...I really do miss him =D

Then in the afternoon I went for a movie with Ben,it was okay cause we didnt really talk that much..he was playing with his phone the whole time but we met a couple of his friends there...and they all thought I was his girlfriend...:S

We went for Resident Evil Retribution

The show was okay for me...maybe I was expecting too much from the director...but Milla Jovovich is so awesome...as always she rocks her character x]

We didnt really talk in the cinema but I notice him playing with his phone allot...most of the time on Facebook from what I see...and there's a girl on his screen which I dunno who that could be but I hope its Son Yeon Jae.

Then we went to popular cause I had to buy my Cleo magazine and a pen for writing..then i saw the book I was waiting for...its from Nick Vujicic...

He is the most inspiring person I have ever met in my life...his life and his words made me tear and his spirit and faith to God is indescribable. I learned many things from him..Not to live my life with worries because we never know what will happen next so why not live a happy and fulfilling life everyday and not worrying.

If I have the chance to really meet him I will thank him for coming into this world and inspired me to live my life a better one than any other.

I really recommend everyone to buy his book or his DVD cause you will really be inspired by him like how he inspired me =)

Yo Ben10 :)

Thank you for the ride home, I hope to have another chance going out with you again.

7 deadly sins of beauty Tag =D

this is like my 1st time doing a Tag blog and I hope it turns out okay..*fingers cross*
okay let's start :
1.  GREED: What is your most inexpensive beauty item? What is your most expensive?
  Well let's see...my most inexpensive beauty item would have to be my elf bronzer which cracked on the 1st     day of arriving /.\ it was about RM12 so its $1 to be in US. My most expensive beauty item would have to  be my MAC brushes i guess...but I got it all on sale so its like RM 32 per piece...i guess its a very nice price  for brushes =)

2. WRATH: What beauty products do you have a love/hate relationship with? What product has been the hardest to get?
 The beauty product that I love would be my Skin79 BB cream. It's in my holy grail List so you can see how much i adore it. The beauty product that I hate would have to be the Nutox makeup remover. Let me get this straight..it sucks..it just doesn't get waterproof mascara and eyeliner off..it's a pain in the ass to clean my makeup and you can't use a cotton pad to remove it...I have to buy a cleansing swipe to remove all my excess makeup..I am never ever gonna repurchase that product again. The product that has been hardest to get for me would be the Maybelline Falsies mascara...I try it every time in Watson but end up buying a lipstick instead. I really love that mascara cause it gives me the volume and holds on to my curls very well. =)

3.GLUTTONY: What are your most delicious beauty products?
  That have to be my Nivea Lip Balm in Strawberry. If you know me, you will know that I love strawberry =D

4. SLOTH: What beauty product do you neglect, due to laziness?
  Eyeshadows! I don't know why but i just feel like applying eyeshadows takes allot of time and I always finish doing my makeup like last minute.

5. PRIDE: What beauty product gives you the most self confidence?
  that would have to be my BB cream and concealer...I cannot live without this two product...If i can choose another one then it would be my brow pencil...cause eyebrows are like frames to our eyes and if we don't draw our eyebrow then any makeup on the face won't look perfect anymore.

6. LUST: What attributes do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
  I think a nice flush of blush will be the cutest thing a girl could have cause when we smile our cheek bone stand out and with a little blush it just the best combination.-tall, good heart and most important,he loves the earth and himself =)

7.  ENVY: What items would you most like to receive as a gift?
  OH MY GOD! there's so many...but if I could choose it would be the Urban Decay Naked 2 palette...I've been eyeing on that palette for months and months now...

Well,there you have it...my 7 deadly sins of beauty tag =)
Now I tag you to do one on your own blog =D

Girls Drama

I've notice many girls get jealous easily...even though its a very small matter...and they get emotional easily...and not to forget...the DRAMA. I don't understand why girls have to get jealous so easily and show it out...well obviously its not your boy or your man or pet or whatsoever, but please..stop with the drama...stop gossiping about others and start reflecting oneself. Isn't it tiring to talk bout others?And is having a guy best friend that important??I don't know bout others but having a best friend come with a price...sacrificing many things...but some people just don't understand...Yes and I am talking bout real people that doesn't understand...stand in my perspective and look at what I'm looking...and then stand in his perspective and look at what he is looking...having a guy friend needs time and effort...a effort of gaining his trust. Yes,we quarrel but we never let others stand in our way...

 Girls,grow up...if you really wanna find a real friend...don't force...use your heart to make friends and they will come to you.Nothing comes without a price...I admit that sometimes i neglected my girls..but that doesn't mean I'm on the guys side...everytime when I'm with a guy they just give me those eyes and it creeps...and its just the start...after the stare and then come the ignorance..LOL..look how dramatic it is...I think girls should get all the OSCAR award =.=

Let's not talk about it anymore...its just getting into my nerves...really don't understand girls even though I am one xD
Well lets hope for the best and Good Luck =)

Hey Ben10 =D

Welcome home ,hope you had fun there..miss you so much =)

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First of all thank you Sze Yee to help me ask =), much appreciated.

Next, I wanna thank you for making everything clear about our relationship =')

I finally understand that going back would be a suicide mission for me...even if it had to risk our friendship..I still wish to be more than a friend to you.

Between us there is always one invisible line that we can't see or touch. I always wish to know more bout you and want you to know more bout me...I pray everyday for you to one day open up your heart to me and let me into your world and build a new world of ours. But I guess it's impossible now...I still can't forgive myself for letting you go...if not we would be 2 years and 3 months now =']

Asking me to let go a person I have put in my heart for 2 years+ is like asking me to not eat for 2 years..I keep hoping that changing myself into a better me would let you see a better side of me,a side you've never seen and you will love..but I guess changing myself has nothing to do with it doesn't it?

For the first time in my life I've never cried or a guy in my sleep or did I cry for a guy because of our memories together, you are my first and I wish you will be my last =).

After listening to this two songs I really cried for you...still I hope you understand the lyrics of the song and relate that to me =)

I can never think of a better way to make myself not think of you. <3

you were here

2 years back, you were here at this very right spot..2 years later, the spot you've had stand once never changed but its empty now..for some reason being alone with this spot for 2 years makes me think allot..allot of you...days and nights without you and yet you still appear in front of me..but its different now..you've had 2 girlfriends after me and I had none. You made me the happiest girl in that 4 months of knowing you. Is it because its been too long of a time, our distance starts to get even further and our relationship could not maintain anymore?
 I question myself every night before I knock off..why did I let you go??Why didn't you hold me back??Was I too easy to go after? or was I just not your type anymore?
 After going to Malacca with you and your family..I started to realize that the spot you once stand, was still clean, and I've always been waiting for the day you come back and stand with me back in that very same spot.
 I admit it was foolish of me not to think before I speak, it was foolish of me not to tell you the words I was suppose to say, and now all I can do is text you like a fool and being foolish to hope for your replies.
 You once gave me hope and light in my life, even though you aren't here anymore. I still dream of me and you holding hands in together,watching a movie,talking on the phone and share our little secrets together. Do the things that we did not accomplish before.
 I text you this evening and hope for your replies. I kept telling myself that you must be too busy to read my messages and hardly had time to reply. But its late at night now and I still haven't receive a single reply from you.Maybe you find me annoying now..maybe its time for me to say goodbye..time for me to say let end this!='(

 Yes if your wondering...I am crying in my heart and it hurts allot!I'm trying not to show any expression out so no one can figure out what's happening to me..every night before I sleep I will plan how am I going to confess to you...every time when I chant I pray that you will one day open up your heart to me and accept me and accept my heart. Every single time I see you online I really wish to talk to you..every single time I text you the first message I hope to see would be you. I wish to cry out loud..I wish to tell you how I really feel..I wish to let you know every single details of me..all my flaws and weaknesses and beauty. I hope this is not too much for me to ask from you. But I hope you will understand me...understand a girl that has not let you go since the day she said the wrong word..the girl that has stood in the same spot looking at you shadows fading..the girl that cries every valentine's day to wish to hear a word of I Love You..the girl that has to get every details of you from your sister to your social networks.

All I ask for is a second chance for me to make things right,a second chance for me to tell you how much you mean to me. ='(

xoxo

B.G